Day -1: No Rest on Rest Day

Today was supposed to be a rest day, meaning that Ezra is done with the chemo and his body is given a day of "rest" from chemo before tomorrow's transplant. No rest for Ezra today with line surgery number five. The surgery went fine, but Ezra is in pain as expected, was very upset about having to get another line and was generally miserable. Pain on top of his discomfort from the chemo. Too much for a little boy to comprehend. Of all the things we deal with, the surgeries are pretty much the worst. Please let this be the last of it. 

Ezra's counts have bottomed out and are where they should be to make room for the new cells. Ezra continues to feel sick, although he does have big chunks of time during the day when he is active and playful. Lately, he is spending his time concocting his own "experiments," using every condiment we can find in the pantry or building "machines" and structures out of straws, medical supplies and lots of duck tape. Always the little scientist-engineer!

Our thoughts today were also focused on Ezra's donor. Somewhere in the country, a very brave and giving young woman was having her stem cells collected today to be given to our baby boy. The method being used for Ezra's transplant is called peripheral blood stem cell (PBSC) collection. She will have already had shots for about four days of a drug that stimulates stem cells to move out of the bone marrow and into the blood stream. Today, she had IVs placed in her arms and her blood went through an apheresis machine, which separated out the stem cells, collected them and returned the rest. This takes several hours. We are praying that she experienced minimal discomfort and that the collection went smoothly. While she isn't a perfect match, we are hopeful that she is just the right match for Ezra to provide him with the elusive cure. She is our needle in the haystack. Our hope when we had none. Our hero.

The doctor came by tonight to tell us that the courier caught an early flight and the cells should be at the hospital at some point tonight. A good sign that things went smoothly. The lab here will then process the cells through the machine that T cell depletes. The transplant will likely happen tomorrow afternoon. 

Please think positive thoughts and send prayers that tomorrow's transplant goes smoothly and marks the beginning of Ezra's second chance for a healthy, long life. We will try to update tomorrow.

Days -4 and -3: Line Problems

Last night, we discovered that Ezra's central line was leaking. It also started bleeding heavily again. The doctors decided to take out the line for fear that it could become infected. Because Sloan uses "temporary" central lines, the line can be removed without surgery. So at 10:30 last night, they removed his line bedside. Thankfully, Ezra still has his mediport (we had fought to keep it in) and they were able to finish his chemo and run the meds through the port. However, Ezra still needs a central line for transplant. So back to surgery on Thursday. It's too hard to explain just how traumatic the experience was for Ezra. Suffice to say it was awful. And now we have to get him through another line surgery. 

Ezra is not feeling well at all. Nausea, vomiting, dry heaves, diarrhea. We are trying to figure out the best schedule for his anti-nausea meds to see if we can help with the discomfort. He is having worse side effects sooner than he did with the first transplant. It is upsetting, but we are trying to keep in mind that so far all signs point to the chemo doing its job, unlike last time.

So far, he has done ok with the latest conditioning drug. He got dizzy at one point today, so they stopped it at that time. His symptoms resolved and they were able to re-start. He is also starting to rage from the steroids that they give him as pre-meds. One more day of this drug. Hard to believe that things will get worse before they get better. Despite how tortuous everything has been for Ezra, he is still a trooper, doing the best he can to keep down his oral meds and to do all that is asked of him.

Ezra Needs You...Again

Ezra's counts are starting to drop and he will soon need blood and platelet transfusions. Last time we overwhelmed the Sloan-Kettering blood bank with the number of people coming to donate for Ezra. They told us that they have never had so many people donating for a patient. Any blood or platelets that Ezra can't use go to other children and adults in need. 

The information on how to donate is below.

IMPORTANT: Family members related BY BLOOD on either side can NOT donate.

Please spread the word!!!

Thank you!

From the Sloan Blood Bank:

EZRA FINEMAN Needs Blood & Platelets

4 year old Ezra is currently a patient at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center in New York City. His treatment will require regular blood and platelet transfusions.  Ezra's blood type is currently O+.  For platelets, you can be ANY blood type. 

Ezra and his family would deeply appreciate your donation of blood and/or platelets and requests you ask others you know to donate. Donations not used by Ezra will be released for use by other patients many of whom are children.

To benefit Ezra all designated donations must be made in the Blood Donor Room of Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center

Please visit www.mskcc.org/blooddonations for complete information about FDA donor eligibility and the donation process for blood or platelets.

For answers to questions and to schedule an appointment that is convenient for you please Contact:      

Mary Thomas  -   212-639-3335

Donor Relations Specialist

thomasfm@mskcc.org

The Blood Donor Room –

1250 First Avenue (between 67th/68th Streets) NYC - Schwartz Building lobby

Open Every Day

Fri Sat Sun Mon     8:30am - 3:00pm

Tues Wed Th         8:30am - 7:00pm

212-639-7648

 

The process for donating whole blood takes approximately 1 hour.

The process for donating platelets takes about 2 ½ hours.

 

Appointments are necessary.

 

FREE Donor Parking -

-Somerset Parking Garage, 1365 York Avenue –entrance on 72nd Street, N.W.corner

 

Days -6 and -5: Chemo Sets In

We made it through the weekend of baths and dressing changes, but barely. Things went well yesterday, but today Ezra started bleeding from his central line after the first dressing change. There wasn't much we could do at first because of the skin issues from this chemo drug. After the second dressing change, we put on a dressing to help with the bleeding and will watch it over night. He is going to need another dressing change tomorrow no matter what. Hoping the bleeding resolves overnight. It is likely due to all the dressing changes and the line not having a chance to heal. That's always the vicious cycle with transplant - everything you do causes another problem.

Aside from this issue, Ezra made progress in dealing with the process by deciding on the way he wanted dressing changes done: Three Stooges playing on the iPad, Mama takes off the bandage, a wet paper towel is patted on the other side of his chest while the nurse does the sterile cleaning (the worst part according to Ezra b/c it burns). He still screamed his head off, but he stayed still and gained a little control over the process.

No sigh of relief though now that this particular drug is done. Tomorrow starts the scariest of the drugs. This drug can cause very serious allergic reactions. It will be slowly given over most of the day. Ezra will be heavily pre-medicated and will likely sleep most of the day. He had a less potent form of the drug last year and did fine. This time it is the more powerful form and he will get it for 3 days. It will be a very anxiety filled 3 days.

The vomiting and nausea are still going strong. He has lost most his appetite. His energy is low and we can see him fading. It is so heartbreaking when he cries "why is this happening?" In between all the hard stuff, he is still playing plenty and enjoying his rewards for being a good boy like his new handheld rocket launcher. We have been busy anticipating and fulfilling Ezra's needs. Like "I need food coloring for my 'experiment.'" Solution? Drop some M&M's in there and see what happens. Or "I can't drink unless I have my Buzz Lightyear rocket cup." Oh yeah? Well, give me that paper cup; here are some construction paper fins; slap on some Buzz stickers and voila! A Buzz Lightyear rocket cup. Now drink.

Ezra's CBC today showed that his lymphocytes have drastically dropped. As scary as this whole process is, this is a good thing. For those of you who followed Ezra's blog last year, the problems started when the chemo failed to kill off his lymphocytes. The numbers may still bounce around a bit, but this is a good sign that the chemo is doing its job this time and the doctors are pleased. Hoping this is the beginning of the end of Ezra's old immune system and a sign that his body will be ready to welcome the new healthy system.

 

Days -8 and -7: Chemo Begins

Yesterday and today, Ezra received the first of several different chemotherapy drugs. It took every ounce of resolve that this is the right decision to not rip out the IV delivering what is essentially poison into Ezra's body. High dose chemo is nasty stuff in so many ways. It is so hard to watch it go into Ezra's little body again, knowing the difficulties ahead.

Unfortunately, the side effects have already kicked in. He started to vomit and have tummy troubles last night. We didn't expect side effects so quickly because last time it was a while before the sickness kicked in. Ezra is receiving a different chemo regime this time, so we guess we need to shed expectations of what it will be like.

Ezra is still having some pain from his line, but requiring less pain meds. He made it through his first dressing change yesterday. Very traumatic - think screaming, kicking child in pain with an open wound that can get infected and a line that could pull out of his chest. As a wise man once told us: dressing changes take years off your life. Just call us octogenarians.

The bad news is that over the next two days, Ezra will have to endure 4 dressing changes. He will be receiving a drug for the next two days that is excreted from the skin. The dressing has to be changed twice a day to prevent very serious skin irritation and rash.  He also has to bathe twice a day. No easy task for a little boy who doesn't feel well. 

Otherwise, Ezra has been enjoying being reunited with his primary nurses who took excellent care of him last year, and the other staff who make this process a little easier to go through. He did a little punching with the karate guy today and has been playing on his mat when he's feeling up to it. 

Doubtful that this first shabbos in the hospital will bring any peace. The electric candles are ready to go (and Ezra is ready to swipe them for lighting his pretend dynamite and rocket engines). We will have all of your kind messages and heartfelt prayers in mind this shabbos. 

We are jumping in - no looking back - our enormous leap of faith. 

Mailing Address

Thank you to all who have been asking for a mailing address for Ezra. Please send mail to:

The Ronald McDonald House of New York

C/o Ezra Fineman

Room No. 801

405 East 73rd St 

New York, New York 10021 

Thanks!

Day -9: Admission and Line Placement

Today is considered to be Day -9. The days are counted negative until Day Zero, which is transplant day. Then we start to count up, and hopefully up and up and never again back to a negative number.

Today was difficult, but in some ways easier to manage because we are on familiar territory with familiar faces. After a long morning of bouncing around from exam room to exam room, Ezra had his central line surgery. The line thankfully was placed correctly. This was Ezra's fourth central line surgery, not including his port surgery. Four years old and a chest full of scars - the chest of a fighter. Ezra still has his port, but for the many medications of transplant a central line with three access points is needed.

Ezra had a lot of pain from the surgery, but the pain meds are helping. We are hoping that he will feel better tomorrow after the huge pressure dressing is removed. He also seems to be accepting that the line is bak, better than this morning when it was all tears over the thought of the central line returning.

After surgery, Ezra was admitted to his room. Thankfully, we got a sunny room with a view of Ezra's beloved smoke stacks and the Queensboro bridge. Ezra is excited that he gets to have a sleepover with his pals Bert and Ernie. Dr. Ezra is back and taking new patients. 

Chemo starts tomorrow. The goal of the chemo is to kill off his current faulty immune system and make room in the marrow for the donor's healthy stem cells. It will likely take a few days before the side effects of the chemo start to kick in. 

It is still hard to believe that we are back here starting all over. We are keeping our eyes and hearts on the goal - a healthy Ezra.

This fortune was found in Ezra's cookie the other night. Let's hope this one comes true.